"When fear invites you in, just politely decline and say you are just way too busy loving life."

Tuesday, December 4, 2007



How uncomfortable does that make you? Well think about me, I am lacking them..ah soon we shall be introduced new nipples. How I have missed you:)

Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Mummy Boobs

So I survived the surgery. I have yet to see the new girls, another 24 hours and I can take a shower Yaa. My doctor didnt do nipps, so 2 more months and then an office nipple procedure, and 2 months after that I get tattoos. Maybe I'll get 4 leaf clovers instead. Okay back to my vicodin coma. Cheers!

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

Back to the boobs

Ok for those of you new to the joys of mastectomy and breast reconstruction, it is a multi-step process to create a new set of knockers. The first step is mastectomy, I assume no explanation is necessary...at the time of mastectomy they insert tissue expanders which are basically deflated implants. Slowly over the next few months they fill the expanders until you feel like you are going to bust open, somewhat like the movie Alien.They resemble coconut shells at the end, hard and round, very unattractive(well honestly there is nothing attractive about this at all) Ok so you are fully expanded finally and then you wait 2 months for everything to settle down. The sencond surgery entails being opened up again revision of the scar around the implant , put a new implant in, in my case silicone, and revision of the outside scar. Now usually the nipple is created in another surgery 2 months later and 2 months after that they tatoo an areolla. phew! Now my plastic surgeon has decided to do nipps at the same time of my exchange surgery, which is pretty unheard of because the implants shifts etc for the next 3 months. But honestly if I can get this whole thing finished 2 months sooner than anticipated yipee. So next monday the 22nd I will have surgery #2. Fingers crossed that I will be happy about the result, The only good thing I can say about medical insurance at this point is there is a law in this country that insurance has to pay for breast reconstruction and until I have a satisfactory result it has to be covered. So here's to silicone and nipps praise be!

Friday, October 5, 2007

Ariella Stabbed and Lives to Bark About It!

Shanked With A Knitting Needle

So my dogs are naughty..alway naughty. Ariella and Binky always seem to find trouble when I'm in the toilet. So a few weeks ago I'm in the loo peering at my puffy eyes, trying to wake up when the sound of 8 legs pounding down the hallway and a baby puppy cry immediatly gets my attention. I see Ariella sitting awfully pretty but her front paw is up in a shake position. I bend down to look at her paw and see one of my metal knitting needles sticking out of her chest. Good Lord! Crap! My poor little pitbull shanked by the evil Binky, prison yard stabbing. So rush to the emergency vet, many x-rays later, lots of money changing hands, and Ariella is fine. The "accident" hasnt soured her love for my knitted doggy blankets. What a story she can tell her friends at doggy daycare, but I think Binky still brags about the time he attempted to kill his sister.

Sunday, August 12, 2007

My Dearest Granny

Granny you had better recover or I will never forgive you! I love you terribly xoxoPam

Friday, August 10, 2007

Whatcha growin?

Ha gotcha on the last one didnt I? The yellow veggie is a cucumber, I think I left them on the vine too long. They look a little creepy.


Ok lets see we have my favorite felted hot pads, that I'm soo in love with. I swear I could pick up molten lava with these things. Family members will probably end up getting some of these for holidays sorry...The photo on the right is my first attempt of a quasi-lace scarf. It actually turned out really nice, of course its black so it doesnt show up so well and I havent blocked it yet. Now I'm working on a lace shawl and another doggy blanket.

Howzabout some pics??

FOOBS= Faux Boobs, this is what I see when I try to look down at my cute sandals... Yes better then nothing but REALLY. I have to live with these things for a couple of months and then I will get my permanent implants which should be slightly more natural looking. Ok you can stop laughing now, I had a mastectomy dammit! Feel bad for me! No laugh away I sure do.

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Have a little free time?

Please please please... If you have some time on your hands please read this womans blog its www.thepioneerwoman.com
. She is someone that you would want to be friends with, hysterical and her photos and recipes are fantastic. I'm having issues with this link for some reason, make sure that its "the"pioneer woman otherwise you get a dead website.

Friday, August 3, 2007

Sophies Choice

Do I finish Harry Potter, or do I knit? Ah the ultimate dilemma...Pics to come

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Joan Jett People!!! San Mateo County Fair

San Mateo County Fair
Ahh Joan is at the fair. Am I sad for her? Maybe but i still adore Ms Jett. Good Times!

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Almost Normal

I'm finally back to work full-time thanks be to Allah! I missed working -crazy!!I go see my fab plastic surgeon once a week to see how things are healing and see if I can get a little boost in the boobage area. So far I've only had one small fill, this week I should get another small one. I do have a lovely cleavage but thats about it. Poor little pancakes...Soon my lovelies!!Bwah Haa Haa (thats my evil laugh)

Friday, May 25, 2007

How To Cheer Up The Boobless Wonder..

Have Dan and Hannah come by with flowers and chocolate cheesecake. I love you two!

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Frankensteins' Bride

Okay-so I survived the surgery woop-woop but man am I a mess. Not so sexy...Tubes are going into my sides where they drain out the fluid, really its not such a great look. I AM CARING AROUND BAGS OF MY OWN FLUID!! All right besides that whole mess I am great- I havent had the meltdown that everyone was ready for.. I saw myself said okay I can live with that now give me more vicodin ; ) They started my reconstruction during the mastectomy so I am not concave, I certaintly have no boobage at this point but I do have cleavage which is pretty odd. All in all things are good, major bruising I might have some healing issues do to the bruising( the skin at my insision site might die, hopefully not, fingers crossed) but besides that I am well. I am on the other side now, no I dont mean dead stupid! I mean the worst is over... thanks for everyone's support and well wishes. Now I can go back to being the cranky bitch I always was- yipee!!!!

Friday, May 4, 2007


My mastectomy is coming and I am calm. Am I mentally prepared or just tired of preparing? I am not panicked, I sleep well, and I have not bitten my fingernails. I look at pictures of reconstruction and I am hopeful for great results. Why am I not freaking out? Weird.

Friday, April 20, 2007

Pearl the Landlord

Is it wrong to laugh at a swearing baby?

Monday, April 16, 2007

Animal Cruelty

Ariellas Blanket(leather couch protector)
Pauls' Beannie in green tweed
Pauls beannie in charcoal grey
My fuzzy scarf! Good lord I'm a weirdo!!

New Camera

So I finally found the usb cable for the camera, and the camera is full of cofee.... great. Ok new camera so finally I am posting some knitting. Save the date- mastectomy May 14th. Ok dont save the date but a little positive booby energy my way might be helpful.

Bunny Slippers

So these are my felted Bunny Slippers, cute but there is much room for improvement. But I gave them away anyway. Of course I see all of their many faults but I am happy that they are completed.

Wednesday, April 4, 2007

Alanis Morissette

Alanis Morissette

LOVE IT!! You might recognize the song if you are familiar with the horrific song stylings of the black eyed peas.

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Self-pity table for one...self-pity

Ok so I am feeling sorry for myself , what of it?? I'm tired of telling everyone that I am fine, I am tired of telling everyone that its not a big deal, I am tired of looking at the pictures although I cant stop. I just need this shit to be over. I finally get a date tomorrow and hopefully it will be soon I cant take much more.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

Gargantuan Knockers!!

So instead of being a knitting blog I have a feeling that this will turn into a diary of my bilateral mastectomy. Happy Reading!! I'll try not to be too descriptive. I go see the plastic surgeon today so lets see how great he will make my boobies. Its still probably at least a month away so I have lots of time to mentally prepare. I dont think thats really possible, but I'll do my best.

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

Brains are mushy!!

Well after taking Excel Level 1 & 2 classes this week you would think that I would feel a little more confidant in my skills HA! now ask me to make an incredible hulk or an adios mutherf****r (cocktails) and we would be in business. It just takes time right??
Last night I finished my 3rd beanie for Paul. This was my first attempt using circular needles and if I do say so myself I did a fabulous job! Love it!! I wasnt thrilled with the nipple on top but it disappeared when on Paul's big noggin. Its a lovely green tweed that looks especially handsome when combined with green army cargo pants..ok now you can laugh. Next a black beanie with the cashmere mix yarn that I got with Hannah at Purlescence, and I found a really cute pair of felted bunny slippers that I might make for a coworkers 1 yr old daughter.
Ok I meet my oncology surgeon tommorow so think good thoughts!!Lets see how long it takes for him to call me a freak of nature.

Tuesday, March 6, 2007

My First Time

Hey world, well maybe the one person who accidently stumbles upon my tiny spot in cyberspace. I guess I have to start taking some snaps to liven up my pages. THE REVOLUTION HAS BEGUN!!